beyond backups

There were many times my computer harddrive completely broke down and then I lost everything. Basically I lost everything digital before my 3rd year of university life. Because of such experience, coupled with my stolen ipod 4 years ago, I just don't bother to organise my itunes library anymore. 

Soon after my ipod was stolen, my harddrive broke down again, and so I lost basically everything. There are backups for some important projects, but songs, basically 7% of my music collection were gone. That was a kind of sadness beyond tears because I know it is exactly the same stupidity as yelling to a dead person and expecting for a miracle. For the past few years I slowly regained the songs by different means, re import them from disks, ask my friends or download them again. However, there are songs that I just totally lost hope with. Imagine there are songs:

1. You forgot the name and composer of the song;

2. That is movie soundtrack that has no lyrics;

3. You don't know what is that movie;

4. You have no clue where you get that song from

The chance of finding these songs is so low that I simply gave up hope. Sometimes when it suddenly replays in my mind, the feeling was extra bitter because I know it basically exists nowhere else other than my brain.. a little bit like an old man you met once when you were travelling.. you don't even have a clue if that person is still alive... 

... that makes me wonder a lot of things.. at this very moment someone is ploughing and not knowing what a computer is; and then a tiger is leaping towards its prey; and meanwhile someone you met before is fighting cancer while the legislators are casting a vote..